Happy 3rd Birthday, my big girl - who refuses to be called a baby or a little girl.
"Only big girl." She corrects me every time to remind me how fast life goes by.

This morning her dad said to her,
"Happy birthday Sofia! What do you want to do today?"
Sofia goes, "I want to go to my party!"
"But your party isn't 'til Saturday.."
So she says, "I want to go to Saturday!"

She's developed quit a clever logic and also a sense of humor.
The other night I was worried that the milk I gave her might have gone bad,
so I asked her, "Does the milk taste funny?"
She takes the bottle out of her mouth looks at me and says,
"mommy, it tastes funnnyyyy..." and starts giggling.
"mommy, it doesn't taste funny! it tastes... crazyyy! hahahahaha.."
We had a good laugh at that. Such a funny girl...
or how she says it, "pho-nee."

So we're off to Sesame Street Place today!

weeeeee!!!!

haven't been feeling well all weekend and have been sort of stuck at home. it started friday after lunch, i had a massive headache that wouldn't go away and i left work early because of it. that night i had chills in my bones, the feverish kind. this happened a few times before and i've since learned to manage it. you have to really wrap yourself up so that you can sweat the cold out of your body. that helps a lot. unfortunately, it's not so easy to call in sick when you have a child. so even when your sick, you still have to attend their needs. i finally feel like i have time for myself, which i really need. more and more lately i realize how much i prefer being alone. i don't like chaos, and anything that is out of control. it is exhausting to me. don't get me wrong, i also do not like things to be perfect.. that just weirds me out. i appreciate and find beauty in the imperfect, i just don't like loud and crazy and belligerence. i've also been feeling weird vibes. like something isn't right. and i worry about such things...

anyhow, these pictures are completely unrelated to this post, but they are making me happy at the moment. they were shot throughout the month of may/june. it is taking me a while to complete a roll of film these days, which i now find to be more satisfying.

the first picture was shot one morning at home before i left for work.
the second one is from a bakery in lower east side on our way to a street fest. this was the bakery i went to the first time i visited new york in 2007.
and the third one is from inside a mcdonald's in coney island.

ps. carla morrison saved me today

brooklyn flea

i must say i was sooo excited to be able to finally go to the brooklyn flea. there were so many great things to look at, mostly vintage stuff. but yeah, it is a bit pricey. i didn't buy anything. well i almost did. i came back to the vendor in the third picture and almost bought a vintage crate. just as i was about to pick it up, two girls were also about to and they both went, "oh!"so i was like, "oh....". so yeah, i didn't end up buying it. which i'm glad anyway, because it was $30. (and that's considered "not bad.") anyhow, it was nice to be able to scope it out. next time i'll know what i'll be on the look out for. on another note, the mexican food vendors seem to be the most popular, since (authentic) mexican restaurants are hard to come by. i bought an elote, which everyone was calling corn. if you don't know what that is, it's corn on the cob with mayo, parmesan cheese, butter and chili powder if you like. i usually tell the elote cart guys in chicago, "todo todo on mine por favor, senor". and he hooks me up with the whole shebang. but here, they skimp on that stuff, unfortunately. sigh.

in the end we went home satisfied having bought a couple of chairs and a side table from a thrift shop around the corner.

west village, nyc

Rirkrit Tiravanija's exhibit – ‘FEAR EATS THE SOUL’

may 12, andrew's birthday
on our way back home

world trade center
PATH station

sometimes,
when i take this route,
i think that some of the other commuters walking around are really ghosts,
but they don't know it. and i think that i might just be in purgatory.

to all the victims of 9/11,
may your souls rest in peace.