haven't been feeling well all weekend and have been sort of stuck at home. it started friday after lunch, i had a massive headache that wouldn't go away and i left work early because of it. that night i had chills in my bones, the feverish kind. this happened a few times before and i've since learned to manage it. you have to really wrap yourself up so that you can sweat the cold out of your body. that helps a lot. unfortunately, it's not so easy to call in sick when you have a child. so even when your sick, you still have to attend their needs. i finally feel like i have time for myself, which i really need. more and more lately i realize how much i prefer being alone. i don't like chaos, and anything that is out of control. it is exhausting to me. don't get me wrong, i also do not like things to be perfect.. that just weirds me out. i appreciate and find beauty in the imperfect, i just don't like loud and crazy and belligerence. i've also been feeling weird vibes. like something isn't right. and i worry about such things...

anyhow, these pictures are completely unrelated to this post, but they are making me happy at the moment. they were shot throughout the month of may/june. it is taking me a while to complete a roll of film these days, which i now find to be more satisfying.

the first picture was shot one morning at home before i left for work.
the second one is from a bakery in lower east side on our way to a street fest. this was the bakery i went to the first time i visited new york in 2007.
and the third one is from inside a mcdonald's in coney island.

ps. carla morrison saved me today


  1. I'm sorry to hear you haven't been feeling well. Drink plenty of water and treat yourself to good comfort foods! Sometimes I only remember to take care of myself and my needs when my body starts to give me warning signs. Feel better! <3

  2. :( :( I hope you feel better soon.

    I understand what you mean about chaos. Being surrounded by things outside of your control is exhausting, and so is trying to keep track of them. My attention span starts going a million miles an hour, and it makes me lose focus and feel like I'm standing still. Solitude is good to get grounded again. I recently discovered this by FINALLY starting a book that has totally hooked me in - Moon Palace by Paul Auster - and gets my mind moving at a normal pace again.

  3. thank you ladies. i feel a bit better, but my health problems are more than just a passing virus. i'm really looking into it now.

    @zeo yes that is exactly how i feel!! i need to check out that book, i've been hearing good things by paul auster. the last time i've felt engrossed in a book is when i read the wind up bird chronicle by murakami (or any of his works, really). i should pick it up a book again.

  4. wow, those cupcakes looks delicious!