i think i'm coming to terms with a messy home, i think. [looks around] okay, i'm not. but one can only do so much in a day.

lately i've been feeling restless. my ankle, which i sprained 4 years ago, still aches. as i lay awake in bed at 4am i make plans on sleeping in and then doing some stretches when i wake up. neither of these happen of course. i hate making plans because it seems 90% of the time, they never occur.

i would like to move to another apartment, one that has tall ceilings and large windows, but the inconveniences of actually moving is discouraging.

pastimes are nice to have if you actually have time to pass.

i do not enjoy my job and i still have "dreams" (no longer plans) of living in another country.

i am going to chicago in march. i kept thinking about crispy pad see ewe last night and i miss sticky rice. i once called my obsession with this restaurant a love affair. i wonder if people who love opart thai in the opposite direction have discovered this gem yet. i hope not. i also miss argyle.

karen and allison are coming in february. i can't wait to actually do things in nyc with other people. hopefully, we can dance floors.

i hope the weather gets better. i have a lot of hope in this as that it is a tiny bit light out at 5pm. cross my fingers.

me and sofia made a vlog. i love watching her watch herself. she is so tickled by it, even for the nth time.


  1. I hate how plans do that. You feel you can't look forward to any plans, in case you have to deal with disappointment.

    I love this post. I love the photos. Gorgeous.

  2. we will dance floors, roam grounds, sip on roasts, eat feasts, and rule the f-ing city. homegirl style.

  3. a messy home = a real home. I'm sick of bloggers parading their 'perfect lives' anyway, it's all such a contrivance. And I hear ya about moving…..I dream of living in the city but can't face the upheaval.
    Dreams are what give us hope, without that, what is there?
    And finally pastimes = time wasting!

  4. @lmao karen, true true! we going do what we do best!

    @suzie for real!! i agree with you about these peachy keen bloggers... bleh. there's no reality. and i always try and remind myself of this quote when everything is a real mess:

    "Clutter and mess show us that life is being lived...Tidiness makes me think of held breath, of suspended animation... Perfectionism is a mean, frozen form of idealism, while messes are the artist's true friend. What people somehow forgot to mention when we were children was that we need to make messes in order to find out who we are and why we are here."

    i think it is necessary for one to dream in order to keep moving forward. or to help pass [miserable] times.

  5. I love these. I feel like I'm in a similar place right now. I just feel restless and like I need to start changing things in my life in order to be happier (like almost stop blogging! :P). I think part of it is just winter...don't we all just go a little crazy when it's dark all the time?!

    Anyway I think you're right that plans always get broken but you should definitely not forget your dreams. The best time is always sooner rather than later :)

  6. allison, you are right. i think the time is has come. i can feel it shoving me towards a new chapter in life. no more waiting. it's happening. it all happening right now.......

  7. i'm a sucker for high ceilings and tall windows, too. i also want to move apartments but i can't seem to commit to it. dreams/plans are funny things. i think if i really want something and will actively work towards getting it, i call it a decision. but i can be so indecisive... (p.s. living abroad is exciting and totally worth it! i've seen some brave scandanavian mothers out here holding her kids' hands and wearing a giant backpack)