Happy 3rd Birthday, my big girl - who refuses to be called a baby or a little girl.
"Only big girl." She corrects me every time to remind me how fast life goes by.

This morning her dad said to her,
"Happy birthday Sofia! What do you want to do today?"
Sofia goes, "I want to go to my party!"
"But your party isn't 'til Saturday.."
So she says, "I want to go to Saturday!"

She's developed quit a clever logic and also a sense of humor.
The other night I was worried that the milk I gave her might have gone bad,
so I asked her, "Does the milk taste funny?"
She takes the bottle out of her mouth looks at me and says,
"mommy, it tastes funnnyyyy..." and starts giggling.
"mommy, it doesn't taste funny! it tastes... crazyyy! hahahahaha.."
We had a good laugh at that. Such a funny girl...
or how she says it, "pho-nee."

So we're off to Sesame Street Place today!

weeeeee!!!!

haven't been feeling well all weekend and have been sort of stuck at home. it started friday after lunch, i had a massive headache that wouldn't go away and i left work early because of it. that night i had chills in my bones, the feverish kind. this happened a few times before and i've since learned to manage it. you have to really wrap yourself up so that you can sweat the cold out of your body. that helps a lot. unfortunately, it's not so easy to call in sick when you have a child. so even when your sick, you still have to attend their needs. i finally feel like i have time for myself, which i really need. more and more lately i realize how much i prefer being alone. i don't like chaos, and anything that is out of control. it is exhausting to me. don't get me wrong, i also do not like things to be perfect.. that just weirds me out. i appreciate and find beauty in the imperfect, i just don't like loud and crazy and belligerence. i've also been feeling weird vibes. like something isn't right. and i worry about such things...

anyhow, these pictures are completely unrelated to this post, but they are making me happy at the moment. they were shot throughout the month of may/june. it is taking me a while to complete a roll of film these days, which i now find to be more satisfying.

the first picture was shot one morning at home before i left for work.
the second one is from a bakery in lower east side on our way to a street fest. this was the bakery i went to the first time i visited new york in 2007.
and the third one is from inside a mcdonald's in coney island.

ps. carla morrison saved me today

west village, nyc

Rirkrit Tiravanija's exhibit – ‘FEAR EATS THE SOUL’

may 12, andrew's birthday
on our way back home

world trade center
PATH station

sometimes,
when i take this route,
i think that some of the other commuters walking around are really ghosts,
but they don't know it. and i think that i might just be in purgatory.

to all the victims of 9/11,
may your souls rest in peace.

sunday

mother's day.

Random Taco Bell drive-thru run with the kiddo back in April. Yup, one of those days...

from a walk around the village and the rest of the roll of lomo film. i had to adjust these on photoshop just because i do not like it so red. i know the film is supposed to be red. but it hurts my eyes. i have 2 more rolls of this film, which i will use in our lomo cameras instead.

i've gone shutter happy the last couple of weeks and have developed 6 rolls of film already. this is insane, i know... and i kind of regret it, because i'd have 1 roll of film from a single day and it lacks variety. i should just stick to taking one picture of anything as the case is 90% of the time i end up liking the first picture i took anyway. so i've stopped taking pictures and gave the cameras a rest. plus we haven't gone anywhere else and most of it is at home.

i asked andrew if shooting film is as good for him as it was for me, because it is just too exhilarating for me. he makes fun of me now saying that i'm addicted and my love for taking pictures is comparable to having an orgasm. hahahah!! yes, we cracked up about this for a good half an hour.

so, is taking photographs as good for you as it is for me? :D

*edit*

here are the originals and other images i took with the lomo redscale film

Thanksgiving Day