haven't been feeling well all weekend and have been sort of stuck at home. it started friday after lunch, i had a massive headache that wouldn't go away and i left work early because of it. that night i had chills in my bones, the feverish kind. this happened a few times before and i've since learned to manage it. you have to really wrap yourself up so that you can sweat the cold out of your body. that helps a lot. unfortunately, it's not so easy to call in sick when you have a child. so even when your sick, you still have to attend their needs. i finally feel like i have time for myself, which i really need. more and more lately i realize how much i prefer being alone. i don't like chaos, and anything that is out of control. it is exhausting to me. don't get me wrong, i also do not like things to be perfect.. that just weirds me out. i appreciate and find beauty in the imperfect, i just don't like loud and crazy and belligerence. i've also been feeling weird vibes. like something isn't right. and i worry about such things...
anyhow, these pictures are completely unrelated to this post, but they are making me happy at the moment. they were shot throughout the month of may/june. it is taking me a while to complete a roll of film these days, which i now find to be more satisfying.
the first picture was shot one morning at home before i left for work.
the second one is from a bakery in lower east side on our way to a street fest. this was the bakery i went to the first time i visited new york in 2007.
and the third one is from inside a mcdonald's in coney island.
ps. carla morrison saved me today
I'm sorry to hear you haven't been feeling well. Drink plenty of water and treat yourself to good comfort foods! Sometimes I only remember to take care of myself and my needs when my body starts to give me warning signs. Feel better! <3
ReplyDelete:( :( I hope you feel better soon.
ReplyDeleteI understand what you mean about chaos. Being surrounded by things outside of your control is exhausting, and so is trying to keep track of them. My attention span starts going a million miles an hour, and it makes me lose focus and feel like I'm standing still. Solitude is good to get grounded again. I recently discovered this by FINALLY starting a book that has totally hooked me in - Moon Palace by Paul Auster - and gets my mind moving at a normal pace again.
thank you ladies. i feel a bit better, but my health problems are more than just a passing virus. i'm really looking into it now.
ReplyDelete@zeo yes that is exactly how i feel!! i need to check out that book, i've been hearing good things by paul auster. the last time i've felt engrossed in a book is when i read the wind up bird chronicle by murakami (or any of his works, really). i should pick it up a book again.
wow, those cupcakes looks delicious!
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